Maybe the Universe

I read this article about love recently. And when I talk about love, I don't necessarily mean intimacy and sexual relationships. I mean loving yourself, your tribe, the people around you, other souls you connect to, life experiences...I'm not sure if the Universe is guiding us or God or what, but I would be lying…

Trauma

Trauma is like a love language. We have all experienced it in some way or form. Everyone experiences trauma differently. Some swallow it whole and it comes out later on in life, spilling into relationships and other parts. Some experience that “leaky” trauma where it comes out all over the place. Some people block it…

You are five

  June 20, 2020 Dear Juliana, You are FIVE today. My heart breaks and then gets put together all over again watching you grow up. It is so hard for a mama to watch her FIRST baby grow up. You are kind, sweet, fierce, and empathetic. Sometimes I just want to say sorry that you…

It pushes on the soul

Have you have had such big feelings that it pushes on your soul? Really really bad ones and really really good ones? I live for those good ones- the ones that make your soul jump into your heart. When you first find out you’re pregnant. When you first fall in love. When you’re with your…

Dear Hudson

Today you are 3. Today you are my little boy instead of my baby and that makes me sad. But I swear to God I will always call you my baby forever and ever even when you hate it. Thank you for being my calm in this storm of life. I’m sorry that it was…

February sucks

Posting now, spell check later. I hate February. With a passion this year. I really wanted 2020 to start off with a bang and that it did. In the beginning of February we had a big scare with Hudson. Update: he’s doing great. We have been pricking his toe every morning and night to get…

Gratitude & Fulfillment

Are you happy with your life? Do you feel fulfilled? Or only a little bit? It's totally not normal to feel fulfillment every second of your life because if you did, how do you know what it feels like? Those times of wonder and questioning your purpose is normal and totally okay. Those times help…

Wild child don’t you cry

My daughter is everything I hate about me. I know that sounds horrible. I feel horrible writing it, but God it hits me hard. She's stubborn. I'm stubborn. She's OCD and gets stuck- just like me on a bad day. She's cranky as ever- so am I on a bad day. Sometimes she's a bully-…

Dear Gramps

To the most selfless man that I have ever met. To the king of our family. To the man who always worried about everyone but himself. To the man who truly loved his life. To the man who never gave me a 10 when he taught me how to swim because he wanted me to…

The end

I am going away March 22 with my soul sister for 2 nights for the first time ever. This should be on the news because I haven't left my babies since they've been born/ not by choice per say, but I've literally been nursing for 4 years of my life. Jules was born in June…