emotion, family, life, love, motherhood

Good Mourning

I get it. It’s spelled wrong. But I’m in the mourning phase of motherhood where I am crying daily that my kids are growing up. That oxytocin is wearing thin and my kids are outgrowing my arms and my lap as I write this. I swear I lie in bed staring at my kids praying… Continue reading Good Mourning

disciplining a toddler, emotion, family, life, love, parenting

I need directions

My daughter is almost 6 and I always knew she was strong willed from the womb. She’s always been a leader, likes to have control, knows what she wants, needs melatonin to sleep, has a ton of energy, thrives with routine and structure, needs to be stimulated and loves to talk and sing- at home.… Continue reading I need directions

emotion, life, motherhood, pandemic, self care, surviving motherhood, teacher mom

I’m not an octopus

Juliana and Hudson are my world, if you haven't already got that. But for the love of God, they are so needy, rightfully so. Being 3 and almost 5 is a hard job, trying to navigate your big feelings in this crazy chaotic pandemic of a world. Pandemic or not, being a toddler isn't all… Continue reading I’m not an octopus

emotion, faith, family, life, love, pandemic, self care, surviving motherhood

It pushes on the soul

Have you have had such big feelings that it pushes on your soul? Really really bad ones and really really good ones? I live for those good ones- the ones that make your soul jump into your heart. When you first find out you’re pregnant. When you first fall in love. When you’re with your… Continue reading It pushes on the soul

emotion, faith, family, its a boy, life, love, motherhood, parenting, surviving motherhood, toddlerhood

Dear Hudson

Today you are 3. Today you are my little boy instead of my baby and that makes me sad. But I swear to God I will always call you my baby forever and ever even when you hate it. Thank you for being my calm in this storm of life. I’m sorry that it was… Continue reading Dear Hudson

emotion, faith, family, life, love, motherhood, Uncategorized

February sucks

Posting now, spell check later. I hate February. With a passion this year. I really wanted 2020 to start off with a bang and that it did. In the beginning of February we had a big scare with Hudson. Update: he’s doing great. We have been pricking his toe every morning and night to get… Continue reading February sucks

Babies, Toddlers, faith, family, life, love, marriage, motherhood, prayer, self care

Gratitude & Fulfillment

Are you happy with your life? Do you feel fulfilled? Or only a little bit? It's totally not normal to feel fulfillment every second of your life because if you did, how do you know what it feels like? Those times of wonder and questioning your purpose is normal and totally okay. Those times help… Continue reading Gratitude & Fulfillment

Babies, Toddlers, disciplining a toddler, emotion, faith, family, life, love, motherhood, naps, parenting, surviving motherhood, teacher mom, toddlerhood

Wild child don’t you cry

My daughter is everything I hate about me. I know that sounds horrible. I feel horrible writing it, but God it hits me hard. She's stubborn. I'm stubborn. She's OCD and gets stuck- just like me on a bad day. She's cranky as ever- so am I on a bad day. Sometimes she's a bully-… Continue reading Wild child don’t you cry