motherhood, surviving motherhood

You Saved Me

I’ve always struggled with anxiety, but I can’t remember struggling with it as a kid. I do remember feelings of sad and other smallish feelings but none of them felt like big feelings of anxiety. I remember my anxiety started in high school and then trickled into college where it got worse and I felt… Continue reading You Saved Me

Babies, Toddlers, birthdays, emotion, family, love, motherhood, parenting, surviving motherhood

Dear Hudson, You are FOUR

Dear Sweet Boy, You are such a blessing to my life and I love watching you grow, but as I always say, it breaks my heart at the same time. Do I pray for you to stay little? Or do I pray you won’t ever struggle or feel pain? I live my life for you… Continue reading Dear Hudson, You are FOUR

faith, family, it's a girl, love, motherhood, surviving motherhood, toddlerhood

You are five

  June 20, 2020 Dear Juliana, You are FIVE today. My heart breaks and then gets put together all over again watching you grow up. It is so hard for a mama to watch her FIRST baby grow up. You are kind, sweet, fierce, and empathetic. Sometimes I just want to say sorry that you… Continue reading You are five

emotion, life, motherhood, pandemic, self care, surviving motherhood, teacher mom

I’m not an octopus

Juliana and Hudson are my world, if you haven't already got that. But for the love of God, they are so needy, rightfully so. Being 3 and almost 5 is a hard job, trying to navigate your big feelings in this crazy chaotic pandemic of a world. Pandemic or not, being a toddler isn't all… Continue reading I’m not an octopus

emotion, faith, family, life, love, pandemic, self care, surviving motherhood

It pushes on the soul

Have you have had such big feelings that it pushes on your soul? Really really bad ones and really really good ones? I live for those good ones- the ones that make your soul jump into your heart. When you first find out you’re pregnant. When you first fall in love. When you’re with your… Continue reading It pushes on the soul

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Dear Hudson

Today you are 3. Today you are my little boy instead of my baby and that makes me sad. But I swear to God I will always call you my baby forever and ever even when you hate it. Thank you for being my calm in this storm of life. I’m sorry that it was… Continue reading Dear Hudson

friendship, motherhood, surviving motherhood, toddlerhood

The island of motherhood

I coach a little college cheerleading on the side- just once a month for a great group of girls. I love going there because it reminds me of college... the days of effortless love, no technology, and hardly any responsibilities. Facebook wasn’t even invented until my senior year of college. We actually all got to… Continue reading The island of motherhood

Babies, Toddlers, disciplining a toddler, emotion, faith, family, life, love, motherhood, naps, parenting, surviving motherhood, teacher mom, toddlerhood

Wild child don’t you cry

My daughter is everything I hate about me. I know that sounds horrible. I feel horrible writing it, but God it hits me hard. She's stubborn. I'm stubborn. She's OCD and gets stuck- just like me on a bad day. She's cranky as ever- so am I on a bad day. Sometimes she's a bully-… Continue reading Wild child don’t you cry

Babies, Toddlers, emotion, family, motherhood, self care, summer, surviving motherhood, teacher mom, toddlerhood, you

My Last Summer

This may sound a little morbid, but this summer is hitting me really hard- the last summer of me. The last summer that I don't have to worry about my kids because they are still in daycare. The last summer I can sit on my unicorn float and read 3 books and day drink without… Continue reading My Last Summer

Babies, Toddlers, family, life, love, motherhood, parenting, surviving motherhood, teacher mom, toddlerhood

Can you just stay at daycare?

This one is hard for me to write. I had to write it now because a few months from now it will sting too much. We are in the last few months of daycare and most of her friends are already gone. They all started together about 4 years ago. Juliana started there at 9… Continue reading Can you just stay at daycare?