The Empty Room

Have you ever had a moment in your life where you can just remember it forever and ever? Yes, I know I have a ton. I’m the type of person who actually really does marinate in the moments - where I know that exact moment will never come back again. I actually stop and say-…

“It’s okay, Mama”

Have you ever been caught by your kids while you’re in break down mode? I mean the crying in the bathroom lock the door sobbing break down? I was caught today. Today, I was feeling the weight of the world. Ever since COVID I can assume most of us feel this way on a daily…

Handle with Care

People who know ME- I mean really know me and my soul know they need to handle me with care. I don't do well with tough love. It's not my jam. My biggest trigger is feeling like a nuisance and while sometimes it is in my head, usually it's not. I grew up feeling like…

Thank you COVID

March and April were hard. As a mom, as a teacher, as a person...it was just hard. COVID hit us hard and no one knew what to expect. It was a BIG unknown and people were out of jobs, people were sick and dying from this horrific pandemic and we were all stuck inside with…

There’s no more wine

Disclaimer: If you can’t handle negativity and are sensitive to high emotions, complaining mamas and kids on iPads, then don’t read this. Thanks and a have a great day. I normally write during high emotions and when my heart feels on fire (good and bad) because it helps me feel like I’m not alone and…

Miss Kris

I love meeting new people, especially in this crazy world we live in with Covid. It’s hard to meet people and easy to feel isolated. We decided to take a family trip to the Cape this year, just Howie, me, the kids and our dog. It was the most perfect little vacation I’ve ever been…

Love is big

When you love someone so much it actually hurts sometimes. It can be hard to feel it all- the good because you never want it to end - and the bad because it does. Good because it lights your soul on fire. Bad because you actually feel like you are in a fire. When you…

You are five

  June 20, 2020 Dear Juliana, You are FIVE today. My heart breaks and then gets put together all over again watching you grow up. It is so hard for a mama to watch her FIRST baby grow up. You are kind, sweet, fierce, and empathetic. Sometimes I just want to say sorry that you…

Big Feelings

I an unapologetically who I am and I will not change. I have big ass feelings and while most of the time I hate it, I love my heart. I actually do love my soul and I feel like I can actually dig deep in my soul and see into it. I know at my…

I’m not an octopus

Juliana and Hudson are my world, if you haven't already got that. But for the love of God, they are so needy, rightfully so. Being 3 and almost 5 is a hard job, trying to navigate your big feelings in this crazy chaotic pandemic of a world. Pandemic or not, being a toddler isn't all…