I wish I didn’t care so much

I wish I didn’t care so much about what everyone thought and how everybody felt. I always just want everyone to be OK and not get so stressed. Maybe it has to do with the fact that sometimes I feel stressed or out of control and I don’t want anyone else to feel that way.…

The Oxytocin List

I recently had a conversation with my masseuse and my husband (not at the same time) and I swear it’s crazy how the world and the stars are so aligned in this world. It seems as though when somebody has an issue or somebody’s going through something that is difficult it’s like the universe brings…

Dear sweet girl, you are SIX

As I write this letter to you, I am giving you all my emotions, all my love, all my feelings and all my heart. I don’t expect you to read this at six years old, nor do I expect you to understand. But I do hope that one day you can read this and feel…

I need directions

My daughter is almost 6 and I always knew she was strong willed from the womb. She’s always been a leader, likes to have control, knows what she wants, needs melatonin to sleep, has a ton of energy, thrives with routine and structure, needs to be stimulated and loves to talk and sing- at home.…

You Saved Me

I’ve always struggled with anxiety, but I can’t remember struggling with it as a kid. I do remember feelings of sad and other smallish feelings but none of them felt like big feelings of anxiety. I remember my anxiety started in high school and then trickled into college where it got worse and I felt…

Dear Hudson, You are FOUR

Dear Sweet Boy, You are such a blessing to my life and I love watching you grow, but as I always say, it breaks my heart at the same time. Do I pray for you to stay little? Or do I pray you won’t ever struggle or feel pain? I live my life for you…

My Underdog

My little underdog is my love story. He's my easy-going, chill temperament, feels like home, calms me down, cuddle bug, non-complainer, into everything, obsessed with cars and all things fire trucks, full of energy loves his "Ani", sleeps on Daddy, loves him mommy, sweet and kind-hearted, could care less if he plays alone, does whatever…

Grace. Just that.

I’m not perfect. I’m not quite sure anyone is or supposed to be for that matter. I’m sure people think they are or strive to be, but I hate that word. We are all human and we have strengths, flaws, interests, talents, things we suck at, etc. But let’s dive a bit deeper. How many…

Breathe it in, run it out

I didn't discover running until after college really. I used to run for cheerleading as we ran through campus cheering our hearts out, but now that I think of it, we were just annoying. I was huffing and puffing, had way bigger boobs, ate Ramen noodles and drank pineapple juice and Malibu frequently. But as…

The Last Time

I feel like I’m reaching a new phase in my life and I’m not sure I like it here. It’s that weird phase where your babies start to turn to big kids, where both kids will be in a school- with kids who might try to steal their innocence and teach them bad things, where…